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Topic: Need your prayers
Posted By: cemab4y
Subject: Need your prayers
Date Posted: August/31/2015 at 6:01pm
My brothers, ten (10) years of service in Iraq/Afghanistan have taken a toll on me. I have had two co-workers killed, and a friend lost a hand in combat. I have seen a man explode right in front of me. I have had several close calls, and I have almost been killed several times. Only by luck and the grace of the Supreme Architect, am I still alive.

I have suffered a severe mental breakdown, and I crawled into bed with a plastic bag, ready to make the final journey.

Fortunately, the Veterans administration, and the Defense Department is taking mental illness seriously. Each day, twenty (20) veterans of Iraq/Afghanistan commit suicide. This does include civilian contractors who have also crossed over.

I am getting the help I need to recover, and to control the depression, which is gripping me, and has done so for the last 20 years.

Imagine living with a growling, snarling beast, that can destroy you in ten seconds. The beast is temporarily controlled with drugs, but the drugs can fail.

I am at a Veteran’s Affairs facility in Maryland, trying to make the journey back to mental health. I often have severe crying spells, and I have to be sedated.

Please keep Larisa and me in your prayers.

Freedom is not free. We each pay for the privilege in different ways.

Charles E. Martin
Perry Point Maryland


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Charles E. Martin

Alexandria, VA

Bowling Green Lodge 73, Bowling Green KY (GL of KY, F&AM)

Alexandria VA Scottish Rite Bodies (AASR, Southern Jurisdiction, USA)



Replies:
Posted By: Sec'yBob
Date Posted: August/31/2015 at 7:23pm
My Brother, I am with you all the way.
 
While I have not endured combat, I empathize with your situation and I support you and all the rest.  I am a vetean myself, served 30 years.
 
The military  can be a chore sometimes without combat.
 
Hang in there, your brothers here are with you and yours.  Be strong, rely on the Master, pray
every chance you get, both alone and with your soul mate.
 
He may not answer your prayer when you want, but that's because he has a plan for you.  Keep the faith remain strong and focused.
 
After all, Masons are good men, I know you can beat this.


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Raised 2001
PM Crestwood-Anchor #443
PM Meramec #313 X3
Past DDGM Dist #24
Lodge Education Officer
Missouri Lodge of Research
O.E.S. Chapter 129 WP X2


Posted By: Adept?
Date Posted: September/01/2015 at 8:08pm
Sorry to Learn of your troubles Brother. Hang in there, and know that the craft is always here for you. It sounds like you have made appropriate and necessary steps toward wellness on your own. Please keep us updated.

Remember... "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem."

Take care, and get well.

Bro. Robert N. Littlefield 32°
U.S. Navy Veteran

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"It is humanity that creates god, and men think that god has made them in his image, because they make him in theirs."


Posted By: scout
Date Posted: September/02/2015 at 10:44am
Brother, I'm sorry to hear of your struggle, but happy that you are taking steps to heal.  I will pray for your healing and happiness. Your brothers love you and are not willing that you be alone. Let's trust our maker, who sees your struggle, to reach out and touch your life.  Open yourself to this healing daily.


Posted By: jdwalker519
Date Posted: September/02/2015 at 1:02pm
You're definitely in my prayers.

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J.D. Walker
Free and Accepted Masons of the District of Columbia
Royal Arch of the District of Columbia
Order of the Eastern Star, Grand Chapter of Virginia


Posted By: log cabin Bill
Date Posted: September/03/2015 at 8:56am
I am also praying for your recovery. It sounds like you are in the right facility for you. I wish you all the best, especially a complete recovery. As you progress, maybe you can find some comfort by using your ham radio license and getting on the air and talking with others. You can probably get on two meters from the VA facility using a handheld rig. Take care and follow what the medical professionals say is the best. Keep us advised as to your progress.
      S&F, Bill (WA3CWA)

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North Hills Lodge, #716,PM
Allegheny RAM,#217,PHP
Allegheny Council,#38,PTIM
Allegheny Commandery #35
Knight Masons,Gateway To The West Council #5
AASR,Valley of Pgh.
Syria Shrine
Islam Grotto


Posted By: cemab4y
Date Posted: October/10/2015 at 10:25am
I am in hospital. I am being evaluated for electric shock treatments

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Charles E. Martin

Alexandria, VA

Bowling Green Lodge 73, Bowling Green KY (GL of KY, F&AM)

Alexandria VA Scottish Rite Bodies (AASR, Southern Jurisdiction, USA)


Posted By: WBScott
Date Posted: October/10/2015 at 3:18pm
Prayers and good thoughts are with you my Brother.

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Wentzville (MO) Lodge #46 - PM
Pride of the West (MO) Lodge #179 - PM (twice)
Pauldingville (MO) Lodge #11 - Secretary
Warrenton (MO) Lodge #609 - Secretary
Past DDGM - 25th Masonic District


Posted By: cemab4y
Date Posted: October/16/2015 at 10:20am
I am transferring to the Baltimore hospital for treatment. If anyone is in the area, please feel free to visit


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Charles E. Martin

Alexandria, VA

Bowling Green Lodge 73, Bowling Green KY (GL of KY, F&AM)

Alexandria VA Scottish Rite Bodies (AASR, Southern Jurisdiction, USA)


Posted By: cemab4y
Date Posted: October/20/2015 at 6:27am
I have connected with a local lodge here in downtown Baltimore. The brothers are bringing over some games and snacks for the vets here. God bless our Craft!

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Charles E. Martin

Alexandria, VA

Bowling Green Lodge 73, Bowling Green KY (GL of KY, F&AM)

Alexandria VA Scottish Rite Bodies (AASR, Southern Jurisdiction, USA)


Posted By: Warrior1256
Date Posted: October/20/2015 at 10:53am
NukeI am so sorry to hear of your troubles brother. Prayers will most certainly be offered.

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St. Matthews Lodge 906
Suburban Lodge 740


Posted By: eagle-751
Date Posted: October/20/2015 at 4:28pm
Prayers my Brother. We understand and feel for you. GOD Bless.



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Past Master ( 2014 - 2015 )
Riddle Lodge No. 315
24th Masonic District
Grand Lodge of Ohio


Posted By: cemab4y
Date Posted: October/21/2015 at 8:48pm
Larisa and I are grateful for all of the kind words expressed by every one.
 
Today, Weds 21 Oct, I received my first electric shock treatment. The procedure went well, only side effect is my jaw muscles are sore from the teeth-clenching during the convulsions.
 
BTW- I do not 'have' depression. This disease is so hateful, no one would consider owning it. I am BATTLING depression, like the brave men and women I saw die in Iraq/Afghanistan. I am using every weapon I can find, counseling, drugs, shocks.  I will have to fight this disease for the rest of my life,there is no cure.
 
With the help of the Supreme Architect, I believe I can control this beast, and lead a fairly normal life.
 
"Knowledge alone, is power" - Sun-Tzu "The art of war" \
"Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer" - Michael Corleone


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Charles E. Martin

Alexandria, VA

Bowling Green Lodge 73, Bowling Green KY (GL of KY, F&AM)

Alexandria VA Scottish Rite Bodies (AASR, Southern Jurisdiction, USA)



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